Poignant sometimes, to look back in time, and to see how straight your back used to be, when the weight of the world was the heaviest it had ever been- on your shoulder. Instead of feeling heroic, u experienced a pang of self-pity, a sharp spasm of something like regret.
Coz u remembered how spent you felt. How drained and depleted.
You just dont want to feel the same exhaustion again. You have had enough. Now, you wana be selfish, immature, childish and release the products of your pent-up emotions to other people.
It is time to let someone else play the role, to carry the burden for you. Even if that person is unable to, this isnt the time to succumb to the needs of everyone else. This is your time for dominance. This is your time to peel the subservience off your body and mind. This is the time to shed your empathy,sympathy and sensibility away, far away. This is the time to be nonchalant and non-committal about all things right.
This is the time to die and breed a new you.
Even when you feel so bloody empty, you wish not to resurrect. At all.
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